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Germany x Depressed! Reader

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Germany x Depressed! Reader
Life was a bitch…it hurt me so many times! I finally gave up but I would never go so low as to commit suicide. I just cut…only two people know about this but there long gone now. My best friends (bf/1) and (bf/2) they both moved nearly the same time I can’t remember exactly how I felt but I cried that night. Then the cutting started…at first it was a few cuts a week. Then a few cuts a day, but it the stress grew more and more…well so did the cutting.

Unfortunately more people began to know…but at least one person didn’t know I mean I would just cry if he did! His name was Ludwig Beilschmidt he was a very good friend but I love him he is the only one that keeps me going. It was raining while I was sitting under a willow tree just listening to the rain beat against the ground and bark of the beautiful tree.

I didn’t notice when he came “____? Is Zhat you?”  I knew who that voice belonged to so I didn’t lift up my head. I sighed “yeah it’s me” he put his umbrella over me and knelt down “Vhat are you doing here it’s raining you might get a cold!”  I looked down “I don’t care…if I do get a cold joy! It means I can stay in bed and not give a shit about the world!”  He looked surprised but he quickly replied “Come vith me I’ll let you stay a night.” He held out his hand honestly I really didn’t want to except but something inside told me to.
So I took his hand “s..sure but I need clothes” he gave a small laugh “Don’t worry I’ve  got extras” so he led me to his house….no wait mansion it was huge! As soon as we walked through the door we heard a laugh “Kesesesese Oh? Did my unawesome little brother get a girlfriend?” I blushed at the thought and I knew he was trying to hide it but Ludwig was blushing to.

Ludwig coughed “Nein…bruder you remember ____ right? She will be staying vith us for the night” Gilbert came up to me and kissed my hand “You know your very beautiful ____ I think you’ll have fun here just visit my room” Ludwig grabbed me “Nein! Er…I mean …I’ll just show you to your room.” He was blushing! So he grabbed my hand and showed me to my room. He gave you a long t-shirt “here zhis should work for pajamas for tonight. I’ll go und let you change” with that he was out of the room I so took off my long sleeve (color) shirt. I looked at how many scares and cuts I had...then I sighed ‘how will i hide these?!’ i thought but then I heard the door open so I turned around. Ludwig started “oh ____ by zhe vay I…” his face was red from seeing me in your bra but his big blue eyes were full of worry and anger from seeing my scares and cuts.

He closed his eyes “____ I’m sorry for coming in without knocking but we WILL talk about this later” He put a lot of anger in the word ‘will’ I just sat there crying. After about ten minutes of crying I finally came out and went to the living room…Ludwig was there. He must have known I was there because he spoke “____.... vhy? Vhy would you do this to yourself!” he got up and turned to walked to me “Vhat made you do this?” I looked down “Look at me! Look me in zhe eyes und tell me!” he grabbed my chin and made me look into his eyes.

I finally told him everything…I even went back to my dead dad and grandparents but I started to cry. I grabbed him and hugged him he stiffened for a moment but returned the hug “you know ____ you shouldn’t take out your sorrow and anger out on your body…you could have talked to me instead” I looked at him with puffy red eyes “I...I didn’t want to bother you by my problems…I s...sorry!” I buried my face in his chest as he stroked my hair.

He gave a sad “You wouldn’t have bothered me ____ I...I mean” he sighed “____ ich liebe dich” I looked up at him and smiled…I haven’t smiled in a long time “Ludwig…I…I love you to” I grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and kissed him he grunted and stiffened in surprise but kissed you back. I smirked when he licked my bottom lip for entrance but I pulled away “wait for the bedroom big boy!” and just like that I went from sad, depressed, and hurt to horny…Yep it’s been a good day!
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Last few sentences ruined it :(